A writer’s anxiety

As a writer, it makes me anxious to not know exactly where I’m headed with my writing. Most times, I have no clear view of where I am going. It’s like walking in a tunnel with no end. It leaves me in a haze. Do such thoughts bother you too? Whatever is your big aim – to be a top-notch blogger or an accomplished author – if you find yourself pondering over it, you are not alone.

This post is for all those writers like me who are anxious about their writing goals or dreams.

Let me ask you this?

  • Do you crave to bleed out the best while at the keyboard, churning out the best story for your blog post, novel, short story?
  • Do you also cherish a hidden desire like writing a masterpiece that will blow all?
  • Do you also want to be as famous as let’s see, maybe, Poe, King, Doyle, Dickens, Rowling or Marquez?
  • Do you also dream of that day when you would get a dozen phone calls of readers wanting to, maybe, just hear you?

And you do not know which part of this writing journey will get what you want? You are welcome to the club I-don’t-know-where-my-writing-is-taking-me. In other words, I don’t know what is that secret ingredient to make my writing take me places.

Being a novice writer, I have read what most famous writers in history have done – their writing patterns, their reading patterns, their precious advice for writers and trust me, it’s a lot to do and be dedicated to. And even though I’ve been roping in most of these rules in my writing, there is that penetrating thought lurking in my head – Am I doing it right? What more do I need to do?

As writers, the single act of writing is all I ask for. So yes, satisfaction, there is. Immense. Fulfilling. Gratifying. And yet these desires rattle in my head with each word that I type. Reminding me of the miles there is to go before I finally go to sleep.

-Asha Seth

 

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  1. Keep going and you’ll get there for sure, you definitely have what it takes 🙂 I think most writers, except the very upper echelon of Rowlings and Dickenses, are part of the I-don’t-know-where-my-writing-is-taking-me club – and I’m sure even they are from time to time 🙂

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  2. Yeah. I feel ya.
    I want to spread my writing not because of fame but to people because I think any piece of writing touches the heart of a soul, might help them rise.
    It gets me down sometimes when I don’t get response because I wanna be well-known atleast, I love writing.
    And I recently discovered your blog, and let me say it’s freaking amazing! (sorry for being informal :P)

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    1. It’s a noble idea I think to want to help people. I started off solely because I wanted to add my thoughts in the eternal cosmos of words. And I am ever so happy to have you for company. 🙂
      Thank you for your kind words; it motivates me to do better.
      Feel yourself home as I shall see to your comfort. 😉

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  3. I understand you perfectly. I’ve been writing for a few decades now and I still get that chilling feeling: is it worth it? Am i doing it right? Will this get me somewhere?
    If possible, the more you write and you learn, the more insecure you are, because you become more aware of the odds against you.
    But we have to accept with is the business of writing. Nothing is certain, all is continuosly shifting, what is good today, might not be good tomorrow. We don’t need to do this to us, but if we need to do it nonetheless… well, we should 😉
    @JazzFeathers
    The Old Shelter – 1940s Film Noir

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    1. It’s true that it’s never enough. And you summed it quite well. 😃
      You’ve got to behead the apprehensions. And that’s kinda winning the game anyway.
      Happy to have you over.

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  4. I really agree with you on this. You have captured the cycle of thought that runs through every writer’s head. I don’t know if one could be called a writer if these thoughts don’t plague them. You are really gifted with words. I assure you, I am looking forward to the day where you are attending calls after calls and maybe hire people to go through your fan mail. Just keep doing what you are doing because you are going to go places with that!

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  5. I don’t know if you can call yourself a writer without going through similar difficulties. The sky is blue, water is wet, writers work blind … it’s just kinda part of the territory.

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  6. I don’t know about you but usually I get writers anxiety before writing, worried that what I put down will be awful. Then I get in the zone and it’s alway a joy. But you have to stop and it’s starting that’s hard again.
    Also sometime not feeling it and thinking this is horrible then coming back and thinking actual that was good. Maybe the anxiety builds the intensity to create.
    This was a great read BTW thanks for writing it.

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    1. Thank you, Byron. The point you’ve highlighted here will benefit many a readers and writers. There comes a point when you finally swallow that lump of anxiety that’s been choking you. That’s when you create wonders with your pen. 🙂

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  7. I like where you’re headed. My issue is more like I write what I’m going through at the moment. Would that appeal to anyone? There’s already so much left unsaid in the real world, don’t want my voice to be unheard online as well!! What do you think?

    Thegratefuldeadblog.wordPress.com

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  8. You have just described the most complicated of minds , a writer’s mind . I myself can relate to it on a deeper level , that is the very reason why every novel i read or write come out to have an unsatisfying end . You start losing plot , you start losing passionate . That’s why i always wonder can the famous writers before mentioned can see through the tunnel because i for sure cannot .

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  9. Asha, I exactly share your thoughts. 4 days ago I wrote explaining the same thing on my Blog BLUSHES WITH PEN AND BRUSH. I have no doubt what so ever that our inner feelings and emotions are the same. Well written

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  10. I too think of many topics which are going in my mind but there is a sudden break …i cant go furthur…it becomes difficult due to other priorites studies bieng the most important one.

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  11. I get like that sometimes, or I get overwhelmed by the novel I’m writing, there’s the pressure to make it good, and make the time you’ve spent writing it worthwhile. But I find that puts pressure on the story itself and can change or damage the flow of the content.
    astralwitch xx

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  12. I understand. To me writing is like being on Teeter Totter, has its ups and downs. But like a friend told me, do it because you like it. I also need to be reminded of this at times.

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  13. Asha, first and foremost you are an artist. I see it in the way your site is designed, I see it in your choice of fonts, images, color. And I feel it in your words. Like you, I’ve read the daily habits of the greats and not so greats, looking for some magic formula to inspire. Quite simply, writers write. And they write a lot. And they write with passion, and sometimes without. But they write. Keep expressing. Keep putting yourself out there. You’ll find your form, and others will follow.

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    1. Writing a lot is the key to better writing, you said it right. I have felt that in the way my writing has transformed. Your words are mighty motivating and I’ll try to imbibe the idea. Thanks much, Vincent. You are always welcome here. 🙂

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  14. When I first started writing, I was always inspired by many different things Asha, Nature, God, love, hate, kindness, generosity, selflessness…words would come alive…it seems I was always able to feel from others spirits and their emotions. But most of all Gods love always influenced me greatly and His living words. I have written many and most I have never read. When I feel I have to share one, then I am moved by someones words, life, pain, sorrow,..and what His spirit allowed me to write long ago come alive and I share hoping that its message touches one who needs the embrace of a spiritual love smile. You write well my sister, don’t think about it but let your words flow freely…He gave you a very unique gift which from your heart only you can share…we will be moved by many things just write and keep it coming. Years from now you will be amazed at the thoughts which found life within and reached paper! Even now I can be reading someones post and I feel something and I will write a poem to them and leave it there. There is a reason for everything we do. Hopefully its always a blessing!

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  15. Actually I like doing both blogging and writing and I want to write a published novel if it turns out to be a bestseller great. If not I am secure enough to be happy to just finally get it done.

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              1. How do you know you are a writer? For me it is when I go into a book store and feel the energy of the writer feel the need to write . Also for me it is when you feel words making their way to you that need to be expressed.

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  16. Of course, I want to be famous, too. I want to blow everybody’s mind away with my writing. I want to be able to go outside and not have to introduce myself.
    But more than that, I just want to write. And even if one person appreciates it, that makes me happy. 🙂

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    1. You are right, word by word. And I like people like you, who live in the now than being dragged and tossed by myriad what-ifs in the future. I love what you write and I swear by the written word. Keep going you too.

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  17. Blogging and reading does take time from being authorial I find bu then they also seem interlinked. I think you are doing amazingly well with all you do and as long as you keep writing you will have a fan base. Sometimes you may not blog because you have the urge to novel it up but we will still be here when you come back.

    I don’t think there is a doing it right, you have your own voice and unique thoughts and style and that shouldn’t be contained within rules, they are only there as a guide to what they did. Make your own rules!

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    1. I wonder if we would ever sit down and enjoy a long talk on writing, books, words and more. I like to know what you think when you share such thoughts inspiring people. I enjoy reading them.

      Rules, of course, there ain’t any. And whether it feels right or wrong, when you do it for your heart’s pleasure, it always brings happiness. This is something I’ve noticed. And of course reading what amazing people like you think about the writing.

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      1. We will, sorry I have been a bit rubbish with setting up a meeting time with you for chatting, we will do it soon and talk about all the awesome bookish things! I am very much looking forward to it.

        Rules are there to be broken, it’s fscinating to see how people do it, some try and avoid the letter ‘e’ and some the word ‘the’ or just change up in some mad unexpected way, I love discovering these new forms and techniques and sharing them.

        You are too kind with your words, if it weren’t for the wonderful inspiration from people like your good self, I would never have carried on with my own writing.

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        1. We shall catch up soon, my friend. Rules, I’ve always felt are funny; made to broken 😛 I would yet love to acquaint with some rules that writers like yourselves follow.
          Let’s keep doing the journey together. Word by word, step by step.
          P.S.: Looking forward to speaking with you.

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          1. Are you free Saturday at all? We could have a good natter then if you are, if not we can look at schedules.

            I like the thought of being on a journey around the literary landscape with you, with some sort of Gollum in tow!

            I’m not sure I have rules, I just write and when it seems pleasing to me it is done. I am sure many editors would beg to differ hehe.

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    1. Well, I don’t see your posts in my reader either. I see you’ve posted quite a few blogs I have to catch up with. And about the writing, it makes me smile to know that you wait to find my blogs in your reader. If this isn’t motivation, I don’t know what is. Thanks, Supriya. Good luck.

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    1. Yes, it’s been quite few years now that I’ve wanted to start writing a book. But the anxiety from not knowing how it’d fare gets the good of me. Thank you, Fionn for sharing your thoughts. Keep visiting.

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      1. Well my first ever book, some 90% finished ended up being a bit of a mess, so I have left it aside to come back to one day. Don’t be afraid to write something that isn’t 100% successful. I did learn from some mistakes though 🙂

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